OMG. I am in such a freakish state. I have time on my hands to get stuff done??? Anyways, to update, I was working two jobs at the ex and it was like 12 hour days for 14 of the 18 days that it was running. I had insanely no time for anything. My room is a complete and utter mess. I don't even feel like doing anything except sleeping. I could literally sleep for a entire day if I let myself, but I can't because school starts TOMORROW. I have observatory tonight. I have yet to buy textbooks. I have lectures from 9:30 to 3:30 tomorrow. I probably need to get all my school texts etc done tomorrow night. I may or may not be working Thursday night. And Friday evening I'm off to Cherry Springs with Ted.

After this, I'm returning to tabling for the astronomy club. I'm not sure what I'm doing for the afternoon until observatory research. It's going to be a clear night. Yay and nay. Yay because I haven't had a successful research night myself. Nay because that means I won't be seeing Alexzander tonight.

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But seriously, even though I have all this stuff to keep myself occupied, I just feel too dead to enjoy anything. I really wish I could run off to some remote town and hide away for the rest of my days in emptiness. I'm really debating why the fuck I'm in biophysics. I don't know what fucken research I will be willing to do for the rest of my life. Actually not just research, just anything. Well, at least I can use school as a reason to be a hermit if I feel like it.

Why do I have to be second questioning things now. I just want everything to be fastforwarded, really fastforwarded. argh.
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I think I need to go meditate for a bit and destress.