The Sleep Deprivation Shakes

I'm so tired, I'm getting the jitters. I could barely write in class, lol. I have had an hour of sleep so far, as I've been up with Ahmad doing our 2020 assignment that was due last friday. :S Although I have some days off, I seriously need them for cramming.

Tonight:
Work: 3-close (10pm?)
Make sure Mastering Chemistry is done
Review Chem and write out formula study sheet/flash cards.
2040 Problem set 3

Tuesday:
Clean Bathroom
Clean Kitchen
Laundry
Get 204o notes from Melisa
Do 2040 Problem set 3
Meet Zaheen downtown at 1pm
Go to Shopper's Drugmart
Study at Ryerson/Eaton Centre
Meet up with Alexzander

Wednesday:
2040 Problem set 3
CRAM FOR A CHEMISTRY QUIZ AND BIOPHYSICS MIDTERM

Thursday:
2213 Lab 7 Writeup

Friday:
YAY!

I'm gonna go and try to catch about an hour of sleep before my next class, if i'm too tired, i'll skip catch another hour and go to work.

I had a whole thing written up about how overwhelmed I was feeling but didn't have time to update before going to a chem lab. I'm feeling a lot better now, but i'm not sure if it's because i wrote all that stuff out, because the lab was short and easy, or the realization that i have two days off next week (granted they will be for catching up but maybe i can actually go on a date to enjoy myself).

Planning:

Tonight
- study for 2015 test
- 2213 lab 7 report
- 2020 assignment 2
- write up letter to revenue canada

Thursday
- fax & phone revenue canada
- work from 4:30-8:30
- study for 2015 test
- 2213 lab 7 report

Friday
- 2015 test
- 2213 lab 7 due
- 2213 lab 8
- 2020 assignment

Saturday
-11am dance class with Abi
- eaton centre, get gift for mom
- go to sis' to babysit

I'm still not a better person than before, but neither are you.

Went to K-town for a bit. Had some pent up angst out.

I think I'm back to normal.

OMG. I am in such a freakish state. I have time on my hands to get stuff done??? Anyways, to update, I was working two jobs at the ex and it was like 12 hour days for 14 of the 18 days that it was running. I had insanely no time for anything. My room is a complete and utter mess. I don't even feel like doing anything except sleeping. I could literally sleep for a entire day if I let myself, but I can't because school starts TOMORROW. I have observatory tonight. I have yet to buy textbooks. I have lectures from 9:30 to 3:30 tomorrow. I probably need to get all my school texts etc done tomorrow night. I may or may not be working Thursday night. And Friday evening I'm off to Cherry Springs with Ted.

After this, I'm returning to tabling for the astronomy club. I'm not sure what I'm doing for the afternoon until observatory research. It's going to be a clear night. Yay and nay. Yay because I haven't had a successful research night myself. Nay because that means I won't be seeing Alexzander tonight.

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But seriously, even though I have all this stuff to keep myself occupied, I just feel too dead to enjoy anything. I really wish I could run off to some remote town and hide away for the rest of my days in emptiness. I'm really debating why the fuck I'm in biophysics. I don't know what fucken research I will be willing to do for the rest of my life. Actually not just research, just anything. Well, at least I can use school as a reason to be a hermit if I feel like it.

Why do I have to be second questioning things now. I just want everything to be fastforwarded, really fastforwarded. argh.
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I think I need to go meditate for a bit and destress.