I heart you Calculus and yet I hate you. No, I don't hate you. I just hate the pressure of school.

Sorry, haven't updated in a while. Busy and nothing really new at the moment.

I was feeling a little off last week, for no real good reason. I guess it was either hormornal or brain chemistry was off. I did use it to write some stuff down. I'll have all the writings posted on D.A. later once I fill up the little notebook.

Today I had a test. I thought it wasn't too bad, which is actually a bad sign as usually when I think I did okay, I did worse... a lot worse in most cases. So I'm gonna write this one off (again...) and focus on the next test and exam. I don't mind if I don't get a too great a mark, but I have to more careful as every mark now is going to count towards whether I will get into grad school or not. Well, not just the marks, I have to understand the material quickly.

I will be hugely disappointed if I don't make it.

Tomorrow I have an interview at 10am. Then I'm gonna go check out some shoe store, lol. Pick up some birth control. If I have time, have lunch with Ted. I have an appointment at 2pm with the temporary Chair of Physics to help sort out my course problem with chemistry as well as get a new security card for Ted to get into the physics building. In the evening, I may get to go see HellBoyII with Ted as well.

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I made a mistake getting this job. I hate these jobs that don't guarantee me hours or work. People at the lower end of the ladder are always screwed first b/c the business doesn't know how to communicate or make good choices. I want to work during this year, but second year really is going to be full and "brutal". I'm debating to drop my genetics course and take it next year. I really wish I could've taken a cushy 9-5 office job with solid hours, but alas, summer school. Makes me want to reconsider doing that again for next summer.

Well, I think I'm gonna push it for next year. I really do need the money. I may have to cut back on time doing activism though. I'll definitely help out but not put myself for everything. Unlike most of the poli-sci majors there, I can't hand in a paper weeks after it's due. That and since I will be more involved in the Astronomy club, and hopefully join the Physics club this year, my time will definitely be more divided. Also, FreeSAY always hosted events that I enjoyed.

At least I won't have to manage around a 40 minute commute. Yippee.

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Friday morning, I'm gonna go talk to Financial Services and ask them about how to get my OSAP. I know I have to write a letter of family break down so I can bypass the asking about my parental income b.s. Then I can apply to York for work study or a bursary *cross fingers*. Once I know the outcome of that, I'll have a better idea of whether I should drop courses and work p.t. Personally I'll rather do school f.t. and work the summer f.t. This summer I had to take calc II for next year, otherwise, I would've only taken a summer course if it was in the evening or one day of the week.